I've never felt like an adult.
In fact, I still feel attached to my teenager years and think about them over and over again, wishing I could back to those times.
It's as if I never wanted to grow up and become an adult with responsibilities, as if I wanted to remain as a teenager all my life.
Maybe the reason why is because I feel I lost part of my life when I dropped out of school when I was 13. I started suffering what I would later discover would be anxiety, and then depression. I wasn't capable of attending classes, not even enter school grounds, I was petrified, I was so afraid...
Even though I didn't have trouble with anyone and was a straight A's student, I couldn't come back. I was so afraid of going that, despite the principal's attempts to get me engaged with the school again and the help he offered me, I wasn't able to do it. Today, I regret it so much.
Years later, I retook my studies and a bit of social life, but in a different way: distance learning and a few friends. It wasn't the same, it didn't make up for what I'd lost.
I wonder if I'll be able to finally get over it some time and come to terms with my present reality.
